I think it's important for me to record down each day that passes during this period. Then, when I look back, I will realise what a fool I've been.
Cuz when I'm with him, I'm thinking of you..
Do fuck off if you're reading this because I'm lazy to lock this blog up, and I desperately need an outlet to scream out to. Serene that means you.
Today, I thought about it less. Of course, that may be attributed to the fact that I didn't spend the day at home rotting in front of the computer. Nevertheless, I will always be wondering what did happen that day. I don't think I will be able to find out.
Because it's over. Yes, I've accepted that.
I know that with each passing day, the pain will lessen, the thoughts too. The mystery kills me, though.
I want to get over this.
I hate myself for sinking so far in, for putting so much feeling into this insubstantial relationship, when I knew it never would have worked out from the very beginning.
In your eyes I'd like to stay.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
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